Friday, March 27, 2009

At Last, Im FREE!!!

It has been hectic for the past month. Mid-term test and assignments coming one by one like a never ending story. It had ended yesterday, my last test was accounting. Suddenly, I feel empty after busing for so many weeks. Those rushing time is over yet I feel boring and have nothing to do. Im free but Im not as excited as I thought. So I sat down and started to write this blog. Kampar always rain during night and it happens every night actually. My house is quiet and the sound of the pouring rain drops can be heard so clearly...tick...tick...every drops. The freedom I get already invest in movie and games. These types of lifestyle is meaningless; is just like people hitting an empty tin. I wish I can find something more meaningful to do, maybe playing instrument or reading novels. I have 2 instruments in my room, a guitar and a violin but my skills has turn rusty. I cant make good music anymore. Music that comes from my heart. There is this saying, people can feel what you feel through the music you play. If I cant play with my heart, how can people feel my music. So far, I have played for 2 person with my heart. First is Jesus and the other is my ex-girlfriend. The music is beautiful.....A music without feeling is a person without heart....a freedom without purpose is also a person without hearts....empty....

1 comment:

Life In Greek said...

i pray that u will soon find meaning in life.. there are more things that u can do..

for me, dance bring out how my heart feel.. as heart lose its feeling, soon dance seems to be empty..

i think is just d same for u. Sorry that i nvr knew u had a gf, didnt really get to know u n wat happen to u.

Hope as relationship become "ex", u wil slowly gain back ur feeling when u journey with God. You can do it, coz im tryin my best too.. =) God Bless